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December 19, 2002
6 Weeks 3 Days
First of all, just so that you aren’t all waiting with worried and baited breath, yes, there was a little scare yesterday. We were going to drive our neighbours to the airport for their Christmas vacation, and I have now recognised that if we are driving anywhere, it is best if I go to the bathroom and pee before we go :-) So, they were loading the bags into the car and I didn’t really have much time but I noticed there was some light red spotting on the tissue. My reaction was a little scared, a little nervous, but still fairly calm. I refused to overreact to the spotting, as I know that some women have spotting all the way through to their fourth month. I just dashed upstairs and grabbed my pregnancy book (or bible) before putting on my jacket and boots to get into the car.
I quietly went up to Simon and told him, just so that he would know, but we didn’t discuss it in the car because of my neighbours. These are the ones who we had told last week or so, and I knew that she would just freak out on me and get really nervous and scared, something I didn’t want to go through. I didn’t have the strength at the time to calm her down, nor did I want to leave her in that state for her poor husband to deal with on the flight and the duration of the vacation. Her personality is very delicate, with low self-esteem, and a tendency to take a development or event and only see the bad half of it. As they were also trying to conceive, I just didn’t want to burden her with that type of information just before she went off to see her family for Christmas.
After dropping them off, I read what my bible had to say about spotting, and we discussed that if it was still red spotting when I got home and went pee again, that we would call my Dr and possibly go in, depending on what they felt we should do. I went upstairs and peed (again :-) ) and when I looked at the tissue this time, the spotting had already turned brown in colour, and I just felt relieved. I knew that it was now old blood and I was in the clear so to speak. The spotting ended later that night, and I haven’t had any today at all.
I do have to say that with every newly pregnant woman, I was worried about miscarrying. At the same time, I held onto this strong feeling that I was going to be just fine, as was the Little One. I don’t know if I could really explain the emotion or instinct, just that I really knew that I would be fine, that we would be fine. It is a very clear and simple conviction. So while I did have worries, they weren’t really resounding within me at all, they were just common worries.
Oh, the other thing is that one of the symptoms I have been having are these incredible waves of strong cramps, almost stronger than my menstrual cramps, which are often so painful that I have to lie on the couch or bed in the fetal position and just breath quietly. The cramp waves aren’t continuous, similar to my menstrual cramps, but they take my breath away just the same. The morning of the spotting however, I didn’t have a single cramp, which also strengthened my conviction that everything was fine.
SO! Apart from that small incident, and I really think it is small, we had a really quiet week here. Because we don’t have class for almost the whole month of December, we spent the time deciding what home improvements we were going to complete this winter, and organizing stuff to accomplish those tasks. We sat and watched home improvement shows on the weekend like we used to, and had a wonderfully quiet week.
My symptoms so far have been my (incredibly) tender breasts, my little nuclear reactor at night and the cramps so far. No morning sickness yet, but I think I’m just in a waiting pattern for that. Oh, the only other thing, and this is more something that Simon has noticed, is that I have now begun the pregnancy brain. He has had to tell me the list of items to do that morning, afternoon, whatever, several times, and even if the list only had, like, three items on it, I STILL manage to forget one of them. As usual, he has taken this development in stride, and just shakes his head at me and tells me what the item(s) was that I had forgotten. At least he’s getting practise early, right? :-)
**Talk to Me**
Did you experience any spotting during the early months of your pregnancy, and how did you feel about it? Did anything come from this scare?
Namaste, Laura and the Little One
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