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September 26, 2002
My second journal entry! I’m starting this one early in the week so I can work on it a little each day. I very seldom have a huge block of free time, but I have small blocks of free time everyday when my girls are down for naps. I should add that Macy does not take a nap, but she has “room time”. I put on her favorite CD and she plays quietly in her room for 2 hours. She loves this time and I really need some down time in the afternoon. I hear her making up the most wonderful stories while she’s in there and most of time when I go in to get her up she’ll still stay in there and play for a little while longer, so I feel sure she enjoys it.
Tuesday 9/24/02
I love fall! I love everything about it. I love the crisp coolness in air, I love the shorter days, I love burning fall scented candles, I love fall type foods like chili and soup, I love seeing orange pumpkins and I love when the leaves start to change colors. I think October, November and December are by far my favorite 3 months of the year. Spring is my next favorite time of the year, followed by winter and then summer is my least favorite (if my sister reads this, I’m sure it’s the opposite of what her list would look like :o). Now, if it will only get colder it will feel like fall. I think the high today will be around 80. I hear a cold front is coming through and that temps will be down later in the week. We are taking the girls to the state fair one night this week and hopefully it will be nice and cool! There’s nothing like eating a hot dog and a funnel cake out on a nice cool night. We went to the fair last year and I was only 5 months pg. We went with another couple that has a DD a year younger than Macy. Last year we only had 2 kids and this year we will have 4! Our friends had their second DD back in July. It should be interesting!
Wednesday 9/25/02
We went to the fair last night and we had a great time. The weather was perfect. It was overcast and cool, but it did not rain. Macy rode all the kiddy rides and even road the Farris Wheel! I was surprised she didn’t get scared; she loved it! Erin did great. I think she really enjoyed all the lights and action. I got the turkey leg I had been wanting for a year! Last year when we went I was pg and we ate at the main food area of the fair, well I didn’t know they were selling grilled turkey legs at the other end! I was so mad! I have thought about that turkey leg for year (insane I know!). Well, we walk in and there is the turkey leg stand. I got one first thing and enjoyed every bit. Then Macy and I split a funnel cake to end the evening. Both girls were asleep before we left the parking lot. I wished we could have stayed longer. It was really crowded since I think most people knew it was going to rain the rest of the week. So far it has been raining ALL day.
Tropical storm Isidore is knocking at our door leaving a big mess. So far our back yard is flooded. The wind is howling and it’s just all around a yucky day. I LOVE days like this; cold, windy and rainy. It just makes me want to nap (which is where I’m headed next). I did manage to get the entire kitchen cleaned spotless and I’ve started getting clothes organized for the yard sale we’re having next weekend. I have so much to do to get ready for that. I have probably 10 boxes of clothes to go through and price. Not to mention that I’m selling everything that Erin has out grown. We’re selling her swing, the bouncy seats, the head rests, and I’m selling her 4-1 stroller system. Half of my garage is packed with things we are selling.
Onto another subject… I’ve been thinking about all the things I’ll miss when the girls grow up and the things I won’t miss. I thought I would list some of them.
Things I won’t miss…
All those little socks that never seem to find their way back together (what happens to the other sock?). All the plastic dishes in the dishwasher; I’ll be happy to get rid of all the lids and baby safe spoons. Stepping on Cheerios and crushing them all over the kitchen floor. Picking up the family room, only to have toys spread all over place less than 5 min. later. I won’t miss changing diapers! The noise from all those toys; so many of them don’t have an off switch. I’ll also be happy to get rid of baby monitors, car seats, strollers, diaper bags and bottles. It will be nice to go out to eat and not have order off the kiddy menu and deal with a high chair. I won’t miss not being able to find time to take a shower, shave my legs, paint my toenails, iron my shirt, make my bed, sit down and eat a meal, enjoy my morning cup of coffee, reading a book (that is none baby related) and having longs talks with DH (w/o being interrupted). I’ll never miss watching The Wiggles, Arthur, or Barney. And I won’t miss reading the same story over and over and over and over and over.
Now, here’s what I will miss…
My first morning kisses and hugs. Hearing that sweet little voice saying “Mommy, I love you”. Feeling my heart burst with pride over a simple colored page or a master piece done with finger paints. I’ll miss shopping for them and having them actually like what I want to buy. I’ll miss hearing “Mary Had a Little Lamb” being playing on the CD in my car, only to be replaced by the latest Britney Spears. I’ll miss having them home all the time. I’ll miss them finding joy in the little things like a bunny or a flower. I’ll miss the size of their hands (is there anything more precious than a child’s hand). I’ll miss the smell of their breath on my cheek as they lay in my lap. I’ll miss playing Candy Land and Old Maid. I’ll miss watching my baby sleeping in her crib. I’ll miss hearing the house filled with the sounds of my little girls laughing. I’ll miss watching Sesame Street, Stanley, Veggie Tales and having an excuse to watch PB&J. And I’ll miss reading the same story over and over and over and over and over.
I have a friend that just sent her youngest DD to college. She said that she has never felt so lonely in all her life. She was almost in tears talking about how she wishes she had a few more years with them and no matter how much she prepared herself, it is still really hard having them gone. She encouraged me to enjoy every moment and that before we know it we’ll be sending Erin off to college. I really do know what she’s telling me and I do pray that I slow down and enjoy them while they’re young.
Thursday, September 26, 2002
It’s cold and rainy today and I love it!! I was so sick of the hot, sunny weather. Now, I’m sure if I had more than a week of this I would be over it, but for today I’m enjoying it. Tropical storm Isidore is providing us with some much needed rain.
Erin has a cold. She seems to feel okay, but her little nose is running like a faucet. She’s having a hard time breathing. And unlike Macy, she does not like to have her nose sucked out (Macy use to laugh). But, we’ve been down this road a million times and we know what to do.
Hears something for Reilly…
I wanted to write something for Jenny and Reilly. Jenny is a fellow diary writer and keeps a pregnancy diary and is pg with her second DD. I have followed her diary for a long time and it’s so obvious what a great Mother she is and how much she loves her children. Well, last week little Reilly was shaken very badly by her childcare provider. I can only imagine the horror that Jenny and her family has gone through over the past week. From Jenny’s latest update Reilly is doing better and should have a complete recovering.
What would cause a seemingly loving person to shake a baby so violently? Well, we may never know. I know myself and I know how much I love my girls and I’ll be honest, I’ve been aggravated to the point of feeling like I could shake them, but I never would. I have enough sense to know to walk away.
I would encourage any Mom reading this that if you get to the point where you feel like you can’t take it, just lay your child down and walk away!!! We’ve all been there, we’ve all experienced it. There are times when you’re exhausted, sleep deprived and anxious and your child picks that moment to start screaming or act out. It’s those times when we feel like we’re going to lose control. Well DON’T!!! Ask for help, call a friend, or just put your child in a safe place and walk outside. And I think it’s a good idea to remind anyone that keeps your child that under no circumstances should they shake your child. They may or may not know the effect shaking a child will have on them. I have a 14 yr old babysitter coming next Saturday to watch Erin for a few hours and I as much as I trust her, I plan on saying something to her. She may not know what could happen.
Well, I do pray that Reilly makes a quick and full recovery. I also hope that M (the childcare worker), will not ever inflict this kind of pain on another child. I can’t judge her because I don’t even know her. I just hope she’s learned from this and doesn’t have the opportunity to do this again.
I think I’m going to end my entry this week on that note. I hope everyone has a nice weekend.
Take care,
Lara, Macy & Erin
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