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December 9, 2003
December 9, 2003
Nathan almost 20 months old
Austin EDD Dec 17, 2003
38 weeks pregnant
Well, I can’t believe it, one week from tomorrow I will be holding sweet Austin in my arms. It seems so surreal to me. In only 8 days our lives are going to be changed forever and dramatically. Nathan will be a Big Brother. I can’t wait to see the two of them together. I can’t wait to see Nathan’s reaction to his little brother. I can’t wait to see Austin’s unique personality. I can’t wait to see who he looks like. I can’t wait to hold a little baby in my arms again!
I am so physically drained. I am no longer sleeping well at night, if at all. If it isn’t killer heartburn, then it’s my peeing every hour, or it’s my body that is sore from my neck to my feet. Lately, it has been all three keeping me from sleeping at night. It is amazing how much pregnancy changes in the last month, at least for me. I guess not sleeping well at night is nature’s way of getting me ready for the sleeplessness that comes with a newborn in the house. I have had to resort to living in sweatpants and Kevin’s big t-shirts. Trust me it isn’t a pretty sight! All of my maternity clothes are getting too small and my belly is constantly trying to show itself to the world. I know all this pain and hardship is nothing compared to the wonderful gift of a baby. It is all so worth it in the end.
On top of not sleeping well at night, Kevin and I have been trying to get way too much done before Austin comes. We really need to slow it down some. It seems like we are constantly busy all day and night, including during Nathan’s nap times (I used to try to relax during his naptimes since being pregnant). It’s just way too much. The last couple of days I haven’t even been speaking coherently, I guess just from pure exhaustion. I only have to make it through 3 more days and then fortunately, Kevin will be off until after New Years. He is using most of his vacation time and some of his sick time. We already knew he was going to be off the day before the c section since we have so much to do that day (including an appt with my OB and at the hospital) and then of course he is off for the actual big arrival. We decided it would be silly for him to just go into work on Monday next week so he is taking that day off as well. That is so weird knowing he only has three more work days and then he is off for a couple of weeks. I am very grateful because that will help tremendously with my c section recovery and also just with the transition that we will go through with going from one child to two. Kevin is excited to be home with us all as well. He was able to do the same thing when Nathan came into our lives. I couldn’t ask for a better husband or daddy. We are blessed that his government job has its perks with good vacation and sick time benefits.
This past weekend we were able to get a lot of things done. We even made time to take Nathan to the playground again. I am finally caught up in Nathan’s baby book, just in time to write in Austin’s :) We are done dubbing all of Nathan’s videotapes and most of our Christmas presents are wrapped. This weekend we hope to finish up getting things done and we hope to have some good old fun with Nathan, while he is still the only child in our home. We are taking him to see Santa Claus (not sure what his reaction will be, I think he will be scared though) and we plan to take Nathan through a big park near us that is covered with Christmas lights. We also have a lot of cleaning we need to do before next week comes.
~ My Loving Little Man ~
Nathan is the most loving toddler I have ever known. I am completely overwhelmed with his pure love for us and life. I am so in love with him! One of his favorite things right now is to give everything kisses and hugs. He kisses and hugs his toys, books, flashcards, and stuffed animals. He also loves to kiss mommy and daddy. He constantly says in a sweet little voice, “Mmmmmmmmmm” and kisses something or somebody. He literally must do this 50-100 times a day. It is sooooo precious and talk about your heart melting. He sometimes will even give himself a hug. He will raise his shoulder up to his cheek and squeeze as if he is hugging himself and he says, “Mmmmmmmm” while he is doing that. It makes me feel really good; we must be doing something right since he is sooooo loving to us and everything. He is so incredible and somehow and someway my love for him grows everyday. Just when I think I couldn’t love him anymore, I do. I am forever grateful and blessed to have him in my life.
~ Changes, Changes, and More Changes ~
I am both excited and nervous about all the changes that will be coming up in our lives very soon. First and foremost, the biggest and best change is Austin coming into our lives. We feel so blessed. Another big change is me needing to find a job very soon. I really hope I can find one that works well with our family and I hope it helps our financial situation. I am sure many of you recall my Getting Real about Staying Home entry. Another big change coming up is my effort to loose weight and be healthy. I am overwhelmed, scared, and nervous about all the changes coming at one time. I know the most important thing is to enjoy Austin’s arrival into our lives :)
~ Remember the true meaning of Christmas ~
One of my close friends from high school is currently serving two years in the Peace Corps. She is currently in Turkmenistan, Asia (right above Afghanistan!!). I recently received an email from her that she sent to all of her family and friends. I thought it was a wonderful reminder from her to all of us on remembering what Christmas is truly about. I couldn’t have said it better myself and I wanted to share it with you all, “Please spend Christmas with those you love and enjoy their company......do not get caught up in the nonsense that Christmas tends to bring but enjoy the simple things like the Christmas tree lights that twinkle at night, the beautiful and creative patterns that snow flakes make on the windows, the way children smile when it's time to open up Christmas presents, the magic that comes with believing in Santa Claus, the way the house smells of baking Christmas cookies. Reconnect with your cherished loved ones and friends. Give of yourself anonymously to those who have less than you. And remember to be thankful for everything that God has given you.”
I thought that passage was very beautiful. Thank you Cristy for the reminder! I am so proud of her and admire her bravery, generosity, and courage so much. I know serving in the Peace Corps is very much a life changing experience. I can’t even begin to imagine the different perspective she has gained about life, the world, and The United States of America. I know every time I read her letters and emails I am reminded of how fortunate we are to have freedom and how much we have to be grateful for in the USA.
~ Can It Really Be? ~
I am almost positive this is my last entry before Austin’s big debut! Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive and excited for us! It really means a lot! I am so excited to share Austin’s birth story with you all! I have asked Kevin to let you all know about Austin’s arrival when it happens.
Belly Rubs to Jennifer with Collin and Ireland! I will be thinking of you and I can’t wait for Ireland’s arrival! I wish you a healthy, happy, and great labor and delivery!!!! Thanks for being a great friend! It is so exciting we are both having a baby at the same time!
Be sure to check for pictures of Austin on the 17th or 18th on our website!! Talk to Me!
God Bless~
Kelly (the tired and blessed one), Nathan, and Austin
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