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November 13, 2003
November 13, 2003
Nathan 19 months old
Austin Scheduled C Section Dec 17, 2003
34 weeks pregnant! YEAH :)
5 weeks from this Wed, Austin will be here!!!
Our Second Miracle ~
You practically can’t even tell I am pregnant when reading my entries. I find my entries are usually about the hustle and bustle of everyday life and all about Nathan. It makes it difficult to catch up because I didn’t even get my diary until I was already in my second trimester. I think about my pregnancy and my love for Austin every single second of the day though! I decided I wanted to write an entry all about Austin. It’s better late than never right?
How Austin came to be ~
Kevin and I only used protection the very first few months of Nathan’s life. We knew we wanted at least two children and close in age if that was possible. We knew there was a possibility of having trouble conceiving another child since we had difficulty having Nathan. I think I only had two visits from AF the entire first year of Nathan’s life and both of those were caused by the medication provera. Once Nathan turned 1 we were going to get very serious about trying to have another baby, if it didn’t happen on its own. In Feb 03 I took a cycle of provera hoping that my period would regulate some and hoping I would ovulate on my own. I did have AF visit me in Feb after my medication and my plan was to take provera every month until my periods started to regulate on their own. In March and April 03 AF didn’t come see me, I was planning to call my OB again to ask him for another prescription of provera. I knew he couldn’t prescribe me another cycle of provera unless I had a negative pregnancy test result. A part of me thought that the test was a waste of time because I certainly couldn’t have magically started to ovulate and become regular. Another part of me realized there was of course a possibility that I could be pregnant just with the fact that Kevin and I hadn’t been preventing it. Around that same time, Kevin kept teasing me about how I thought I smelled everything!! I did the same thing in the beginning stages of pregnancy with Nathan.
Another incident that happened around that same time was when Nathan was eating in his highchair and out of nowhere I totally lost it and started to cry and I became so upset about something Nathan did. It wasn’t like me to loose my temper with him. I thought to myself, “What on earth is wrong with me?” After the highchair incident Nathan and I made a special trip to go to the store and buy some pregnancy tests. That wonderful day, May 7th, I waited till I laid Nathan down for his afternoon nap before I took the pregnancy tests. I was in complete shock that both tests came out positive! I was so happy and surprised at the same time! So instead of calling my OB to tell him I had a negative test result and he could prescribe me more provera, I called my OB to tell him I was pregnant and needed to set up my first prenatal appointment. I could hardly wait for Kevin to get home from work so I could tell him the great news! I knew I wanted Nathan to be involved in some way of telling daddy about the big news. So I decided to put the positive test in Nathan’s back pocket. I knew daddy would pick him and hug him as soon as he got home. Sure enough, my plan worked. Kevin was sooooo happy and surprised too see the test strip in Nathan’s back pocket! Sure we were trying to have another baby but my periods weren’t regular at all and we truly thought I wasn’t even ovulating. We were so overwhelmed and happy that I was able to get pregnant again. If you are interested, I took a ton of pics that glorious day; you can see them on our website under May 2003! In Feb I had my cycle of provera and in March my body must have started to regulate on its own because we conceived in March. So during all the fun and craziness of Nathan’s 1st Bday in April, we were pregnant but we just didn’t know it yet!
My Pregnancy So Far ~
We are very fortunate and blessed that just like our pregnancy with Nathan; this pregnancy has been very uneventful (Knock on wood!). I have had your normal pregnancy woes such as, nausea and a horrible gag reflux, heartburn daily and nightly, hemorrhoids, I get out of breath very quickly, a lot of lower back pain, exhaustion, pelvic area pain and pressure, and a little trouble sleeping. I have always been a big time tummy sleeper so it’s been hard sleeping on my sides. Especially in these later months with all the extra weight, my hips, shoulders, and legs get really sore in bed. I feel like I switch sides at least 100 times a night, which is a site to see – BELIEVE ME!! LOL. But it doesn’t really help alleviate it much.
Pregnancy – This Time Around ~
Although physically, my two pregnancies have been very similar, they really feel a lot different to me. When I was pregnant with Nathan, I was a busy college student finishing up my last year along with working my social work internship (you can read more about Nathan and how he came to be in my diary intro). I was busy all the time, always around people, always having a reason to dress half way decent – I could go on and on. Weekly, if not daily people would ask me how I was doing and feeling. They would even tell me how great I looked etc....
Well this time around, the only people I really see are Kevin and Nathan. I have been sooooo bad about getting out of the house, primarily because I don’t feel like it. I have been so drained during this pregnancy. And for another, there really aren’t many places to go or people to see. I miss hearing from people how I look or asking how I feel. Obviously the biggest difference in the pregnancies is now having Nathan and making the difficult transition from being an active college student and intern to a stay at home mom. Before, when I was tired or not busy I could just take a nap when I wanted. This time around I am busy taking care of a toddler 24/7 while being pregnant. It has been a major challenge. Hard but worthwhile for sure! For the most part this pregnancy has gone pretty fast, although I am sure these last few weeks will totally drag. Lately, I find myself being very ANXIOUS AND BORED these last several days! I am sure it is just the anticipation that’s building. I should love and relish in my boredom, because I know once Austin comes there will be no boredom on top of a lack of sleep. I guess it is only natural though to be going nuts right about now!
How I am Feeling Emotionally ~
I am in love with Austin already! I can’t wait to see him, hold him, and kiss him. I love Nathan sooo much that it is truly amazing to me that I could love Austin just as much, although I know I will. Huck I already do! I will never forget the day we found out that baby 2 was another boy. I literally started balling right then and there and put my hand on my mouth in shock and trying to control myself :) The ultrasound technician was worried I was disappointed that I was having another boy and actually she couldn’t have been more wrong. I felt sooo completely blessed to be having another son and I knew how much fun it would be for Nathan to have a little brother. I constantly wonder what Austin will look like. Will he look like Nathan or mommy or daddy? I am sooooo excited to see him! I am also excited to see Nathan with him for the first time! That moment will definitely be overwhelming for me – seeing my two boys together! :) Most days I am still in amazement that I have wonderful Nathan in my life; I can’t imagine having two boys in my life. I am truly blessed!
To Do ~
We have so much to still get done before Austin’s big arrival in 5 weeks. Traveling so much on weekends is making it very hard and tiring to get much done. We have been trying to organize all our closets and computer/storage/guest room. We are washing up the infant car seat, bassinet, and the few clothes of Nathan’s that Austin can wear. We are waiting to buy most things until after my baby shower to see what all we get.
Sharing a bedroom~
Nathan and Austin will be sharing a bedroom. Unfortunately, that is pretty much our only choice. I am nervous how that will affect both of their sleeping habits. Any moms out there, who have a similar situation or age difference, let me know if it works out okay or any advice! Of course while Austin is in the bassinet he will be in our bedroom at night. It has been really weird to not be getting a room ready for this baby. That is probably another reason why I don’t feel like we are getting ready for the baby.
Baby Shower ~
My baby shower is coming up on the 22nd – which means another trip to Quincy. My mom and lifelong friend are throwing it for me. I am really excited to have a celebration of Austin’s upcoming arrival. Even though it will be a long day, we have decided that day we will just leave for it in the morning and come back that night. It is way too hard staying the night with Nathan. Plus we were just there this past weekend.
Birth Plan ~
Unfortunately, once again I will be having a c –section. I guess at least this time it is planned and not after 18 hours of labor and dilating to a 9 ½! My OB doesn’t do VBAC’S and since I love him, I decided I wasn’t going to change doctors just so I could try having a vaginal birth. I figure it is better safe than sorry, although I will always wonder what a vaginal and/or natural birth would be like.
Our plan so far is that my mom, dad (he is actually my step dad but I call him my dad), Aunt Sheila, and best friend are coming down the night before our big day. My c section is scheduled for the 17th of Dec at 7:30 am but I am supposed to arrive at 5:30! Luckily, my dad said he would be happy to stay with Nathan during the actual big event and just come later with Nathan to the hospital. Everyone else will be going to the hospital with us at 5:30 probably. My mom is hoping to stay the 3-4 days that I am in the hospital and help us the day we go home. If she isn’t able to stay for several days then Kevin wouldn’t be able to be at the hospital that much with me and Austin. Nathan is too young to want to be at a hospital all day. Plus we want Nathan to have as much of his normal routine at home as possible. So my mom plans on helping to watch Nathan a few hours a day so Kevin can come see us at the hospital without having to bring Nathan with him. Kevin would like to be at the hospital as much as possible. He was at the hospital the entire time when we had Nathan. He would have slept there if he could have.
A Hard Few Days ~
This past weekend we were in Quincy seeing my family. We were there from Sat morning till Tuesday night. We didn’t go Friday after Kevin got off work because we wanted at least one more night of good sleep before we went. We knew Nathan wouldn’t sleep well and we were right. The first night we only got 3-4 hrs of sleep. He hates sleeping in his play yard and really missed his crib at home. Pretty much every night he would sleep in his play yard a couple hours and that’s about it. We tried everything. Eventually he had to have a bottle in the middle of the night and he ended up sleeping in the bed with us. So of course none of us really slept very well since we aren’t used to that. And forget about Nathan taking his normal naps. I was pretty much a tired grouch the entire time. I hardly said anything to anyone. Nathan did have a lot of fun seeing family though; it was real sweet to see him have so much fun with everyone.
I am dog tired from traveling so much and I am tired of having to travel so much. I can’t imagine doing this for the rest of our lives. It’s either travel a lot or never see either one of our families. From the end of Oct till the end of Nov we will have traveled 3 of 5 weekends with a very pregnant mommy. One thing I know for sure, once Austin comes we are done with traveling so much. It’s too much. If they want to see Nathan and Austin then they can come see us. I am sure we will get really lonely but I am sick and tired of traveling so much and I don’t see any other option. Not to mention the fact, it cost a fortune to travel and lord knows you all know how broke we are!
Double the Big News ~
Talk about a lot of big news! This past weekend, I found out big news from my aunt and best friend (same one who is throwing the shower and who is coming down the night before Austin’s birth). While I was in Quincy I found out my aunt is getting married on Jan 17th, which is her birthday. So one month postpartum we will be traveling for that. I am really happy for her! We planned on going to Quincy pretty quick after Austin’s arrival anyway because I want my grandma to see him (she is the one I mention a lot in my entries and she cant travel to see him). But that will be the last trip for a long time!!!!
My best friend called me and told me they are expecting their second baby! There two children will be 13 months apart. It sounds scary probably but actually they have a ton of help. Literally her parents want to watch their baby all the time, entire weekends just for the heck of it and she has a ton of family and friends around her. Plus they were trying to have their children really close in age, so she is really happy about it. She said she hopes it is another girl. It’s funny because before she had her first baby, she was actually hoping it was a boy but it wasn’t. Then she always said how nice it would be to have one of each. Well now she says she wants two girls and no boys. She said boys are too obnoxious and harder to raise. She said she wants to raise two prissy little girls. Needless to say that didn’t sit to well with me! Duh, here I am having my second son! Was she telling me how bad I have it? Was she telling me she feels sorry for me? Was she trying to make me mad and jealous that she has at least one girl? UGH!!!! Sure it would be fun to have a girl to dress up and play with but I don’t consider myself unfortunate because I am having a second son. I think all children are blessings and miracles and God just must think I am a great mommy to boys!
Holiday Plans ~
Needless to say, we aren’t going anywhere for Thanksgiving. We recently saw both our families and we are done traveling except for the baby shower coming up. It will just be me, Kevin, and Nathan for Thanksgiving. We always go somewhere so it will probably be pretty lonely and sad for me but at least we will get some stuff done and wont be traveling again. Obviously the same goes for Christmas, we will be home with a brand new baby and I will still be recovering from my c section. I hope to see some family over Christmas but I won’t hold my breath that anyone travels to see us. When we were at the hospital with Nathan, we hardly had any visitors at all. Even once we came home, we really didn’t have anyone to come see us. My parents saw us as much as they could.
Other Tidbits~
~ Happy Birthday to my younger brother Joe, who turned 25 on the 11th! I can’t believe my little brother is 25!!! WOW!!!! I feel like he should still be 16! Most days, I cant believe I am not 21 still, time goes sooooo fast doesnt it?
~ Nathan wears size 3T! And a size 9 shoe WOW! His clothes are a little too big for him but he is too tall for 2T! He is going to have huge feet like his daddy! Kevin wears size 17 shoe! YIKES!
~ GO KANSAS CITY CHIEFS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My hubby was raised near KC, MO and has always been a huge and die hard fan of the Chiefs. So far, they are the only undefeated team in the NFL!!!! YEAH!!!!! They are my fave team as well! It makes me happy to see Kevin so happy about it! Let’s hope they go all the way YEAH!!!!
~ GO KELLY JO on The Bachelor! She was my pick the very first night!
Christmas TTM Questions~
~ Any ideas on where to get a great and special first Christmas ornament for Austin?
~ When are you all putting up your Christmas tree? We don’t know when to do it! We wonder if Nathan will constantly pull ornaments off or not, if so than we would rather wait till last minute to put it up otherwise we were thinking Thanksgiving would be a good time to do it….. Any thoughts on toddlers and trees?
~ Any thoughts on Christmas outfits? I would love to find a cute holiday outfit that is in both size 0-3 months and 3 T so Nathan and Austin can wear the same outfit for holiday photos. We think that would be too cute! We haven’t had any luck finding that so far!
Gosh, this entry was long! Thank you sooooo much if you stuck with me on it! I had no idea it would be this long! Would love to hear from you!!!! Let me know you made it through this way too long of an entry! Sorry if it seems so choppy – I had so much I wanted to write about and as you can probably tell – I am dog tired!
God Bless~
Kelly, Nathan, and Austin
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