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September 3, 2003
September 3, 2003
Nathan 16 ½ months old
Austin EDD Dec 17th 2003
24 weeks pregnant
Back To Reality With A Cold………..
How can it be September already? Where did the summer go? It was at the beginning of the summer when we found out the wonderful news we were expecting our second child. Before my pregnancy symptoms came on full force, I had actually planned on having a fun filled summer with Nathan doing all the normal summer activities. Poor little Nathan didn’t really get that though. We only went to the zoo once and went swimming once in our kiddy pool. We don’t leave the house a whole lot either. It was always way too hot for me and my pregnancy hormones, or we were busy traveling to see family, or I had no energy or motivation at all. Nathan has had some time in our yard with mommy or daddy and he has been on several walks, though mostly with daddy lately. In the spring and early summer Nathan and I would take a couple walks a day but that quickly disappeared once my body realized I was pregnant. Now that I have a little more energy and motivation, my lower back hurts real bad when just walking a few minutes. So needless to say, I feel bad for our little guy, he hasn’t had as much fun as he would have if mommy weren’t pregnant. And I know other toddlers have done a lot more this summer than he has. But I wouldn’t trade the pregnancy woes for anything. I know I am completely blessed to be having a second miracle! In a few months Nathan will have his little brother to love on and play with so that will hopefully make up for mommy not being able to do much. It is probably a good thing he is still so young and he doesn’t really realize that he is missing out on summer fun.
Well, we are back from our 4 day trip to my hometown, Quincy, Illinois. It was a nice time but very exhausting. Nathan never has been much of a car ride type of baby or toddler. One of us always sits in the back with him, boy do I miss sitting in the front with my husband :) And pretty much we give him toys non stop, read to him, and do anything to keep him from screaming the whole time. The weather was supposed to be real nice, temps in the 60 and 70’s and it was but it literally rained the whole time we were there. We definitely needed the rain but it would have been nice to spend some time outdoors. We had planned on going to the park and trying to go on walks with him. We didn’t really do a whole lot. We spent a lot of time visiting my parents and brother and we also got to spend a little time with my grandma and aunt. The weekend definitely wore Nathan out, poor little guy is used to two naps in his crib and used to getting 10-11 hours of sleep at night in his crib. Since he was so busy being with family, he was lucky to get one nap a day. At night he didn’t get near enough sleep, he never has liked his play yard much. He is a crib man! I think Nathan got a bit of the cold virus while we were out of town; he was sneezing a lot and had a runny nose. And at times was a bit fussy, although that could have been just him being tired. So with his cold, we didn’t see as many family members as we had hoped and planned on.
How could I forget? While we were there, Kevin and I got a couple hours of alone time. On Sunday, my mom watched Nathan for three hours so we could go out to eat and whatever else we could think of. It was hard to think of things to do since it was raining. We had hoped to play miniature golf or something but the weather wasn’t cooperating for that. So we ended up just having lunch and going to a couple stores that would be difficult to go with Nathan at this age. We ate at Diamond Dave’s, which is located in the Quincy Mall. It is a chain of Mexican Restaurants. I have loved Mexican food during this pregnancy! Other than the heartburn I get from it. I ordered a Shredded Chicken Chimichanga meal and he had the Chili Chimichanga meal. We both topped it off with Fried Ice Cream, YUM YUM! I was so full! It was so nice to eat out once without a toddler to keep happy and busy. Our food took longer than normal and we came away with two free dinners. So next time we go back to Quincy, we know what we will have to do – use the dinner certificate! After we had lunch, we went to the book store and candy store in the mall. Both stores would be very difficult with Nathan. In the bookstore, he would scream because he would want every book in site. And unless we want to buy every book he touched, we can’t let him have them. He loves to eat and tear books up. The candy store has way too small of aisles and he would grab everything so we took the opportunity to go to those two stores since we didn’t have Nathan with us.
It was soooooooo wonderful to have a couple hours with Kevin. I would give anything to do that once a week, huck at this point once a month would be a dream come true. We literally have no family or friends around us, the closest live 2 ½ hours away. So we never have 5 minutes alone let alone a couple hours or a whole night. I often cry about our situation, I hate not living by family or friends. Sometimes I truly feel as if the three of us live on our own planet. I get so lonely and want to raise Nathan near family. That is how I grew up and it was the best! My hubby has tried to find a new job near family and so far no luck. A true miracle would have to happen for us to be able to live near family! Kevin’s degree in mining engineering is very regional and specific so it is hard to find a good job just anywhere. Whereas, if his degree was in civil or mechanical engineering it’d be a lot easier to find a job in Quincy. The stinky part is his job actually involves a lot of civil and environmental engineering work but since his degree is in mining, employers don’t really consider him in Quincy. I can’t tell you how many days or nights I have shed tears over not being near family. I am so scared I will never feel completely happy and complete unless a miracle happens and we are able to relocate.
My dream is to be near family not to be rich. Kevin worked so hard for his degree that I wouldn’t want him to just take any job to get us to Quincy. I would without a doubt rather have a middle income and live in Quincy than to be filthy rich and live away from family. Right now, our status is middle income – just to give you a better idea. I loved growing up around my entire family and I wish Nathan would have some of that - it isnt possible for him to live by all our family since our families are in different locations. It breaks my heart that family wont be able to see Nathan and Austin participate in future activites that they will be in :( Also, I won’t lie, sometimes we need a break and it would be great to have some social support around us. I think on average once every 6 months we get a couple hours alone together to go do something. I always find myself being so envious of people I know that always have babysitters and get to go out and have fun. But at the same rate, a lot of these same people have awful marriages and relationships, so I definitely consider myself blessed to have Kevin. We have a wonderful marriage and that is what makes it so hard to not be able to spend a few hours with him once in awhile. I miss him! I pray for a miracle......
So it is Back to Reality for me. I am always in a bit of a depressed mood when returning from Quincy because I already miss them so much and it was so great being there for a few days. I usually feel a little better after a few days being back home, it just takes some time......
** Now to a totally different topic! I am a Reality TV addict – UGH!!!! They suck me in! Even Kevin likes some of them! I love Cupid (GO HANK!), Big Brother 4 (GO anyone other than Jun or Allison), Paradise Hotel (GO newbie’s!), and For Love or Money 2 (GO Wade!)..... Way too much trash TV, but its fun! What can I say?
I had hoped to talk about Austin in this entry, but I will save that for next time since this is a sappy entry and he deserves a complete positive entry!
Thanks for reading and listening to me whine! Excuse any grammar mistakes, been one of those days! Hope you had a nice holiday weekend! Have a good week everyone! Would love to hear from you – TTM!!!!!
Thinking of those TTC and prayers to all of us who are pregnant....
God Bless~
Kelly, Nathan, and soon to be Austin :)
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