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Home Stretch

June 29, 2006

Home Stretch

Well, I guess that, with less then a month left until my due date, I am officially in the home stretch. This landmark is highlighted further by the fact that today was my last day at work. To tell you the truth, it feels a little decedent to just 'take off' of work for a month when I am actually feeling fairly well, but I must remind myself that, as an RN, I have a VERY physical job, one that probably shouldn't be carried on right until the end, both for the sake of my body as well as the patients and my coworkers that, truth be told, get a little short changed when I cannot keep up with the phrenetic pace, help with moving heavy patients, bend over to pick up things that drop into annoying little crevices, and the such.

In any case, I also have the very tempting offer of heading down to the Cape where it is, on average, ten degrees cooler then in Boston, where my mom waits to embrace both myself and, more importantly, my daughter, where we have relatives (with cousins! Close in age to Ella!) visiting, and where we have a lake always available, not only to cool me (and again, entertain my kid) but also to take away this weight and leave me feeling buoyant and free! Who could EVER resist such temptations? Certainly not me. We leave in two days, and plan on staying for two weeks!

In other 'home stretch' news Jamie made the observation to me that Ella seems to be clinging to him more lately. She has also been a little quicker to melt down or to suddenly admit she is feeling blue for no reason. I felt bad that it took him pointing this out for me to notice but I can see he is right. I suppose logically there could be a number of reasons for this but the most obvious (as well as the reason that I didn't see this on my own) is that I have probably been shorter with her then is normal. I definitely haven't been as much fun, as after a day at work (or, say every day that I am hot and sweaty and tired) I am not good for much more then lying on the sofa. From there, I am willing to play cards or board games or read books but there are only so many options, even I will admit... Jamie also wondered if she was growing more clingy to him in anticipation of 'losing me' to the baby. I doubt this is the case, but you never know. I really do try to make my shortness be about 'me' being tired, and not 'the baby' displacing her, although I guess I can see how her thinking could go...

I had some good news at my last ob/gyn appt. Every since we had a 28 week ultrasound this little one has been breech and I was really starting to think I might have to do a C. At this last appt, however, my Dr. was able to tell she was now head down and not very likely to turn. This was a relief, although I must admit that I had almost talked myself into liking the idea of the C. Although Ella's birth was smooth and easy, I liked being able to schedule it and to know pretty much exactly how it will go. I didn't, however, like the thought of a the longer recovery period, especially not being able to drive. Well, no need to worry about that anymore, at least not unless something goes awry....

Final 'home stretch' thoughts are my own inner musings about the changes ahead. Here I swing wildly from one extreme—loving my life now, with it's established patterns, Ella's growing independence and our cozy family of three—to the other—aching to hold my little baby, to see her face and hear her coo. Until now, I have never never felt as though my family was complete and I am very much looking forward to filling our circle. Well, I guess that's all for now...

As always, thanks for reading!

Bonnie

PS--Here's another picture, this one (obviously) from Easter.  It was at a cute event in the town next to ours.